When I was four years old, I killed myself.
For a long time I thought “La Molejera” would forever hold the record of Most Egregious Research-to-Product Ratio. I read a 480-page ethnography for that story, which is 8500 words long.
Then I got the idea for this story.
It’s also a contender for the Longest Time From Idea to Story prize, since I came up with it in October of 2009, when my husband and I were on a trip to India. I’d brought with me William Bucks’ abridged retelling of the Mahabharata, one of the two great Indian epics (the other being the Ramayana) . . . and a side character in it caught my imagination.
But it took me until early 2019 to figure out how to approach that character as a story. In the interim, I read other versions of the Mahabharata; my research is linked in the sidebar to the right. All in all, it totals over a thousand pages of reading for a 3400-word story. Given the scope of the epic, though, it was honestly necessary for me to understand the cultural and narrative space through which that character moves.
“Sankalpa” will be published in Beneath Ceaseless Skies.